The story of the phoenix


This is a completely random posts . Just writing a few things here , probably you already have read about it before if not ,  go ahead and read and even you do you need to read to know :D . When do I get most of my blogging ideas ? While I am in bed trying to sleep , while taking a shower or in the bus while going to college. And yes sometimes in classrooms too , depends on the quality of lecture being delivered . Like the one I’m typing right now is while I’m having another sleepless night and I’m typing it on my phone.

So when and why did I exactly start blogging? It was after class 12th when I was bored to death had no friends , school friends had joined colleges and I had not started with college so I hadn’t met the lovely bunch I now call my friends for life , that’s what drove me to write a blog and the phoenix was born or should we the phoenix rose from the ashes . What made me choose the name phoenix ? No clue , probably because I liked Fawkes a lot and found the phoenix really cool but to think of it I could have called myself Fawkes but phoenix it was and is . I find the bird phoenix very attractive , magnificent and interesting . It has a different kind of aura no creature falls in their category except maybe unicorns. I actually thought of getting a tattoo depicting a rising phoenix , but couldn’t get it , hopefully soon.

Then comes the question how did teenage babbling come up? Again no idea , I am still in my teens and wanted my blog to be something teen oriented so came teenage had to be there but babbling – I still wonder . Maybe because I babble and ramble a lot here.

Eventually I fell in love with writing , there is something about it that gives me a sense of satisfaction , I think I can express myself the best this way. And now I wish to have a career in this very thing. I started writing back in fifth grade and at that time it was stories , short stories. Very few people know this , I guess only one of my friends who read my stories . And she might have forgotten too. I have lost those stories , they were on a small notepad which I will never find just like my childhood. I know a saddist thought but I do miss being a kid , it was so easy. Then there was long time when I did not write till grade ninth when The Times of India gave our school a chance to publish their newspaper for a day and I was a part of the editorial team , we had our own edition on October 12 ,2006. Surprisingly I still remember the date , it was the most defining day of my life .

Then in twelfth came the blog , you obviously don’t want me to babble more about it and finally came the thing closest to my heart on 17th March , 2011 The EP!C Magazine was born. My very… correction OUR very own magazine. I was editing a whole magazine on my own , I got to read and learn a lot. There is always an excitement to know what a writer has to write for a new issue ,experiment , innovate things and implement them. EP!C goes beyond just writing its about editing , interacting with like minded people and a lot of other things.

And now a after a gap of three months we come up with the next issue of EP!C next month , the idiosyncratic citizens are back in business , back in the arena with our second innings .

I will stop writing now feeling sleepy finally although will publish this tomorrow morning after editing.

The Road Not taken


I am not a very avid poem reader ,mainly because most of the poems are so deep and its generally hard to decipher what the poet means . I am always  left wondering what message (s)he wanted to convey . But Robert Frost’s Road Not Taken is one poem I absolutely love. It is a very relevant and succinct poem , everything is so clear .

I remember reading it for the first time five years back in ninth grade , it was in our English literature curriculum. We were having a discussion on it in the class , when our teacher said ” those who will prefer the road not taken , raise your arms.” I raised my arm and when I looked around , I had no company , it was me alone so in five seconds even I put it down , feeling confused. And when she asked who would prefer road that is taken often , the entire class had their arms raised .

” Amazing ” said the teacher. She further continued why risk taking the unknown road , who knows what you might end up in , its always a safer bet to do the tested and tried things . This baffled me even more .Why was a teacher encouraging her students to do something that has already been done? Why not try something new ? Why not create the difference , be the difference? But  being the only one who differed in a room of nearly fifty people  I never asked her why , but was left abashed and astonished .  Maybe it was weird I assumed back then.

But when I think of it now I wonder why even take the road which has already been used and you have no chance of discovering anything new . Won’t it  be much more adventurous and thrilling to take the road where nobody has  gone ,  travel on the grassy path rather than  the down trodden one ,  exploring the unexplored , trying the untried , discovering the undiscovered?  So what if its risky? You will end up coming out of it gloriously , having learnt a lot of new things about yourself and the world. Learning much more and after making the difference and being the difference and until that doesn’t happen the road still hasn’t ended for you. You might doubt yourself in the middle for not choosing what could have been an easier task , but don’t give up because until you get what you needed from the road , it hasn’t ended and you have a long way to go.

So I know if I am at cross-ends and have to choose one road , I will tread on the road not taken . What will be your choice ? The road not taken or the tried and tested one , let me know if I am still the only one who thinks this way. And now I leave you with the amazing poem , the last lines being my favorite:

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim
Because it was grassy and wanted wear,
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I,
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

-Robert Frost-

Bug me not


What is that one thing that irritates you the most ? What can provoke you to actually pull your hair out ? I figured out the few things that piss me off the most. And trust me I won’t show it to you but I really get mad at people who repeat these things .

On the top of the list is not getting replies. Replies when I ask you a question , text you , mail you or call you . How can you be so busy that  you can’t type a single message when you check your phone every five minutes or maybe five seconds? A reason I reply to all my mails and texts almost immediately is that I myself don’t like waiting for replies then why should I keep others waiting . You might think I have nothing to do but trust me you are never too busy to reply , the only exception being when you are in a mobile free zone. People even text when they are in class rooms and when at work so what refrains them from replying?

I just don’t understand when you can update a million pointless  statuses on facebook updating where you are partying or eating out why  can’t you reply to that important message someone send in your inbox. It might be important to that person , more important than knowing what you are having for your lunch.

Even worse is when people don’t reply professional mails , I mean why somebody does not check their work mail . I can’t stand not getting replies to my mails which are official. Although we Indians are not at all professional but its a different story altogether and deserves a different post.

So far I can count only two people I stopped replying to and that too after they literally got on my nerves , bugged me and irritated the hell out of me. And they will never read this post so relax if you know me and are reading this it is not you.

The second thing that I completely detest is – waiting . Yeah , I absolutely abhor waiting , when we decided to meet at certain point of time why can’t you turn up on time. Why keep yourself preoccupied and waste the other person’s time? It is okay when its an emergency but the chances of it being an emergency are only 0.0009% . Lord alone knows what can delay you by half an hour when we decided on doing something two days back. Maybe I am impatient but have a lot of things to do so please don’t keep me waiting . And oh SWAT its okay when I wait for you because most of our plans are made on the spot. I might crib but its okay .I even hate waiting for the light to turn green , so I might be at fault too.

The third thing that bugs me is littering .I have written about it before too. People around me try not litter when I am with them , my brother being an exception . Again why can’t we refrain ourselves from throwing the wrapper on the  roadside? Indian government is kind enough not to fine us for this but isn’t this something we should realise on our own?

Enough said ,I vent out a lot today , I will go study now and in the next post I have something exciting to announce and I know now you are going to bug me all my life if I get late by 5 seconds and keep you waiting .

Let the music play


Its that time of the year when I write the maximum blog posts because its the best thing to do when you have just your laptop to entertain you . Phew yes the time I dread , final exams begin next Monday. Apart from my blog something that has been keeping me alive is the music. Some of my favorites right now are :

And if we feel the silence
Holding this all inside
Everything means more now than
Words could explain

I have listened to this one before but there is a new found love for this track , its playing on repeat for the past one week now.

Never opened myself this way 
Life is ours, we live it our way 
All these words I don’t just say 
and nothing else matters    

I am never getting over this one , no matter how many times I listen to it , I want to listen to it again. The first Metallica song I heard long time back in school.

I think that possibly
Maybe I’m falling for you
Yes There’s a chance that I’ve fallen quite hard over you

This one due to certain reasons is very special. I absolutely love the lyrics and Landon Pigg has an amazing voice. *DROOL* 
I turn the music up,
Got my records on
I shut the world outside until the lights come on
Maybe the streets alight,
Maybe the trees are gone
I feel my heart start beating to my favorite song
I am a huge coldplay fan but this one is *THE* favorite song , yellow , fix you , lost , paradise all are on the list too but nothing beats this.

The only hindi song in 2011 which was good and I am still hooked to it. 

I don’t think you trust
In my self righteous suicide
I cry when angels deserve to die

Its loud and blaring and I sing it even more loudly when I am driving alone and nobody stops me :D  

The Two faces of life.


She studied in school , so did I , she like me was in grade nine. No difference , you’d say. But there was a huge difference . She visited my place every evening after school to help my mom with all sorts of house work. When I spent my evenings having fun cycling with friends or watching television , she dusted my room , chopped the vegetables and cleaned dishes. There were evenings when she finished work early and I taught her to use the computer. This went on for two years, we then shifted places and since she lived far off from our new place she stopped coming.

Two and a half years back she and her family were asked to vacate their house by their landlords and since we had an extra room , they moved in. We were still in school in class eleventh probably. Strange are the ways of life , those three people lived in a small one room flat. How , I always wondered. I cribbed even when my brother entered my room , I screamed at him for evading my privacy.

Now her mother helped us with the housework and she sometimes came for some small jobs but was asked to focus more on her school . I was glad atleast she did not have to work much. There are so many unfortunate people who do not go to a school their entire lives. But she inspite of being from a not very well to do family was going to school.

Both of us cleared our twelfth boards the same year. I went to study in an engineering college while she chose not to study further. Maybe she did not , her parents chose it , they could not afford college fee because they wanted to have a saving for her wedding. My mom insisted that she study , so we helped her join some computer course and another small time course but that did not help much. Those courses hardly lasted three months and did not fetch her any job.

She has been at home for the past one year , doing nothing , isn’t the chirpy girl she used to be , does not talk much. And yesterday I came to know that their family is visiting their native place to get her engaged to some guy she hasn’t even met before. I was bummed by the fact , she is actually getting married. But why so soon. She is barely as old as me . Why do all of us not get the same opportunities? How can someone my age who passed out of school the same time as me get married ? Its hard to believe.

I know I might be over-reacting and in our country it happens a lot. But then I come back to my question why are things unfair to some of us ? How can we be destined to do different stuff ? What did she do that she couldn’t study as much as me? And what did I to do deserve whatever I have ? Why is there so much difference? After all both of us are same. Why is she less fortunate ? Its strange and I wish I could help her somehow . But its out of my control. I hope she has a better future that compensates her not so great past. That’s the least I can do. But what about the questions I asked. Any answers to those ?

HAHA …. I am too funny


I am surrounded by the most lame people and they crack even more lame jokes. These jokes can leave one speechless and sometimes might not even qualify as jokes . Thought I should share a few of them with you :

Date structure teacher (while teaching foreign keys) : What is foreign key ? Basically we define foreign as , when someone goes from India to another country he is in foreign land .
Me: Sir What about the guy who comes from the other country to India?
Blank Silence.

Swat and me going to have breakfast at Mc Donald’s , while crossing JW Marriot
Me: I was thinking we should have breakfast at Marriot instead of usual burgers at Mc or Hot millions
Swat : Forget it , we don’t have change today.
We had only fifty bucks at that time.

SS: Please tell me some position in  …
Uncle V : 69
Blank silence
SS(after sometime) I was saying a position in a software company.

Me (while lighting candles) : The candle wax fell on me , its hurting.
Dad: Good , you just got va(wax)iccanted
Me : HUH???

Me : Mom , are you kidding me?
Mom : No I am adulterating you.
Blank silence.

Me (at KFC while climbing down the stairs , the board said mind your head ) : Uncle V , I can’t mind my head .
Uncle V : Why so ?
Me : Because I am too high headed .

AB (on getting his green slippers back ): Guys I have my slippers back and then revolving around. Guys this is such a green revolution.
*PERIOD*

When Uncle V uses an umbrella in summers
Me : Using an umbrella is so lame in summers , how can it stop you from being tanned?
Uncle V : It won’t effect you , you anyways have hair falling all over your face (indicating my tresses that have a tendency to fall on a my forehead)
Me: Okay , so you mean to say , hair are like some anti-tanning devices ?
Uncle V: Yes
Me : Prove it
Uncle : Look at your scalp , is it tanned ?
Me : No , you have a point , so lets keep our hair on our faces.
THIS IS BY FAR THE LAMEST AND MOST RANDOM CONVERSATION.

At the traffic lights when the light turns green
AV: Drive , the light is green.
Me : Oh yes , sorry I forgot I was driving.

Me to Bro (who was studying) : Dude please tell me how you concentrate ?
Bro : I follow some rules .
Me : Interesting , shoot I am listening.
Bro : Rule Number 1 . Stay away from you (my name)
Me : Okay whatever .

And this one’s my personal favorite .
All of us were planning a trip on activas to Kasuali
Someone(i don’t remember who) : Listen this is a very far fetched plan , its not happening. Stop dreaming.
Uncle V : No we are just trying to make memories , wonderful college memories.And you should be a part of it.
Someone2 ( I don’t remember this someone either ) : Yeah just like people make babies , we make memories.
Everyone : Now that’s something new .
There’s quite a possibility that someone 2 was me. But let it be , I am too modest to take credit of such jokes.

Maybe these do not mean anything at all and a lot of them may not even be funny anymore but they did entice laughter at one point . I did not remember a lot of them and finished this post in a month of wrecking my brain. And is for all those who will understand these .

India Shining. Really?


I fail to understand where the future of this country is going . Its a disgrace when someone decides to expose the government , he is declared to mentally sick and is admitted in a physic ward. Can the government stoop so low? Do they have any principles at all. Well maybe we should not even mention the word principles when it comes to talking about the current political system in the nation . Its just disgusting.

The present government is not clear with its own policies. They are going haywire , they crossed every limit with hiking the petrol prices yet again. What are they thinking? Its like torture to the common people . Mamta Banerjee declared that she’d withdraw her support from congress if they do not rollback and that drew the wrath of the finance minister Pranab Mukerjee who says , it was done with her consent and if she is so concerned why doesn’t she reduce the tax in West Bengal. Utter non-sense. How do we expect a government that is bickering with its own people to take care of the entire nation?

Is it not a bit strange that Kasab is still imprisoned and not hung , every minister who is sent to jail falls seriously sick and is rushed to the hospital , Amar Singh and Yeddyruppa the latest ones on the list? Why does the government have to criticize the Jan Lokpal Bill so much? Can’t they just pass it if they think they are not corrupt? Why are there so many scams? Lets not even get into naming them all. Are we a real democracy or just hypocrites calling ourselves democrats?

I wonder , can normal people like you and me do anything about it? Probably not. Yeah right we do have a choice to elect our leaders , but is there any choice at all. Choosing between two political parties is like deciding between two one rupee coins and deciding which one is better and then eventually just picking up one randomly. At the end of the day they are all the same . No matter who you vote is going to play nasty games with the common people.

Why can’t we focus on important and significant things , like improving the country’s economy or the declining sex ration or how to utilize the human resource in the country? Do these politicians have any conscience at all? How long can we go about questioning them ? How many more people like Anna Hazare will be required to bring a change? How many more movements like this to make India actually shine?

85/4 Part three


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Suddenly it struck him that they still had not informed Mrs. Smith’s family, did she even have a family.

“Mike, does Mrs Smith’s family know about the murder?” David asked while having their lunch at Cindy’s

“ We did not find records of any of her immediate family , no kids , her husband  died nearly twenty years back in a freak  accident and since then she has been living alone. Although chief says that she has an estranged step-sister in the town but does not know who she is.”

“Yeh heard of her and her sister’s stories, they haven’t talked since long, although nobody knows who the sister is.” David replied.

“Phew, this sounds like one spooky murder…..

“Did I just hear murder officers? Has someone been murdered?” Cindy had come back with some more juice.

“Yes Cindy, the emergency in the morning was Mrs Smith’s murder” said David .

“What? Mrs Smith has been murdered, granny will be sad to know.”

“Your grandmother knew her, you never told me.”

“Yes they knew each other very well when they were young but they stopped talking to after my grandmother got married.”

“Can we meet her?” Mike asked

“Not so many of you”.

“I will talk to her, where will I find her Cindy.” David said

“She is sleeping right now, tomorrow maybe.”

“That will be too late, can’t I talk to her now? “ David persisted.

“Okay let me check with her.”

After five minutes Cindy came back and told him he could go talk to her but not question her much because that might stress her.

She led him through a door inside the kitchen; they entered into what looked like a living room. So this where Cindy lived thought David. He never knew she lived somewhere inside the café itself.

She took him in a dark room next to the living room, there on a chair sat Cindy’s grandmother. She was old and looked frail.

David greeted her, then he realized he did not know what she was named, that’s when Cindy spoke up.

“Granny this is Officer David he visits the café very often. He is the one who is on grand-aunt Linda’s murder case.”

What did she just call Mrs Smith grand-aunt?  Does that mean Mrs. Smith’s step-sister was Cindy’s grandmother? Thought David.

“Oh greetings officer how are you? It’s a pleasure to meet you” she said in a broken voice.

“Pleasure’s mine Mrs. Umm…..”

“Murphy, that’s my mother’s last name. Cindy sweetheart, why don’t you go and take care of the café while I and officer chat about Linda”.

“Okay granny, take care, and call me if you need anything.”

And she left the room.

“She is such a nice girl, does everything, and takes care of me and the café so well. Yesterday she hurt herself when the coffee jar broke, in spite of that she has been working” the old lady told David.

“She indeed is a great girl.”

“So you wanted to talk about Linda. I am saddened to know she was murdered, but not surprised or shocked, she and her ways were funny and probably not accepted by a lot of people . Destiny played its game with her.”

“So you knew her, but how?” David asked, eager to know more.

“Well , it was a deep connection , we had the same father , a wretched man he was. He loved her mother more than mine and eventually started despising me too. Spoilt her but treated me like one of his servants. Even started getting mean, snubbed me , sometimes used to hit me and I could not do anything about it. And when my mother died my father got me married to this waiter and I along with him built this café , we had a son , he died long time back and left behind his daughter Cindy. Linda married the son of a rich landlord and they never had kids. When her husband died she came back to St Petersburg and started living in her father’s  house. I thought I could get that property atleast , lead a happy life in my old age but she did not let that happen and now here I am , half blind and unable to walk properly. There is little joy in my life, all I now want is Cindy lives a good life. She is a lovely girl.”

All through this David kept on nodding listening carefully. He pitied Mrs. Murphy, but was shocked to know that she was related to Mrs. Smith , Cindy and he had talked about her so often but she never mentioned that she was her great-aunt. So Cindy and Mrs. Murphy were Mrs. Smith’s mystery relatives, how come nobody knew that? I now had to talk to Cindy, he thought to himself.

“I know I did not really love my sister but please do find her murderer, murdering anybody is a great                sin. Thanks a lot officer.”

“Yes Mrs. Murphy , we will breathe only when we find the murderer.”

He then thanked her and left.

He couldn’t find Cindy anywhere in the kitchen and then he spotted her chatting with Mike and Ricky . They had finished their lunch and were the only ones sitting at the café.

“Hey Cindy, can you please come to the kitchen “he said briskly.

“What great guys Ricky and Mike are, you have a nice team” Cindy said as she entered the kitchen.

“Yes they are really cool; hey Cindy you never told Mrs. Smith was your grand-aunt.”

“Well there was nothing there to tell about in that , I never wanted anyone to know I am related to her. Infact I had never met her. She was sinister and it’s because of her, my grandmother has to live here ,  I am glad she is dead at least my grandmother can live a better life in what is her father’s house. Or we can sell that off.”

“Cindy someone has been murdered and you are happy about that fact , that’s inhuman , even you had grudges you can’t feel happy about it.”

“I don’t want to talk more about it, I have lived my entire life pretending that I didn’t know her and I will continue that.”

“Okay I won’t trouble you more with it now, by the way , take care of your hand , that seems like one nasty cut.”

“Yes officer I will” said Cindy with a tired smile.

After finishing the lunch when the three of them were leaving Mrs. Smith’s maid walked in, she said a hello and went directly in the kitchen, apparently she personally knew Cindy and her grandmother.

“So David what did the old granny tell you?” asked Mike

“She was Mrs. Smith’s step-sister.”

“Seriously? Well does that take us any way forward in the case?” Ricky asked

“ I don’t know , the lady can barely walk and is half blind , she couldn’t have murdered although she had a perfect reason and her granddaughter , well I know her personally , she can’t murder anyone and we don’t even have any evidence against her or anyone else” David said in a very confused state.

They were heading to Dr James laboratory when Ricky’s phone rang. It was Chief on the other end; he wanted to talk to David. He enquired of the progress and was disappointed to know there wasn’t any.

From the lab too they returned dissatisfied, the blood samples of the maid and mail man did not match

Just an hour before his meeting with Chief, David sat thinking the entire turn of events. Mrs. Smith was strangulated to death , the mailman  could not have done that , he came seven hours later , there was a possibility the maid could have done it , she had access to the house but her blood samples did not match the ones found on the sheets. If she had done it was with an accomplice. But who? Suddenly his mind drifted to Cindy, poor her, runs a café, takes care of her grandmother so well and keeps her happy , how did she manage all that at the age of twenty-five.

“Hey David, did you see that girl at the café was injured, she had a wound and we are looking for a murderer who is injured, she definitely fits into the puzzle very well.” Suddenly Mike said

“No Mike, not possible, there might be so many injured people we can’t go suspecting everyone and Cindy is the last person to have done it”

By srishtikush Posted in fiction