Being Twenty


I have been a away for a while, just because have been feeling lazy to write and couldn’t really come up with something interesting to write. In the months when I was busy being lazy, I turned twenty and therefore the post. Honestly being twenty and nineteen are the same. The only difference is I am no longer a teenager which invalidates the name of this blog. And owing to that reason I have come up with a new one, find it out here:

http://beingtwentysrishti.wordpress.com/

I call it “Being Twenty” , hope you enjoy reading on my new blog. Looking forward to hear from you there. Being twenty is fun, nothing goes wrong when you are twenty. You are neither too young nor too old. This blog is from a twenty year old who wants the world to know what she thinks of it, her bizarre thoughts and her ramblings. So folks see you there, cheers.

No Country for good men


Ours is a great country, here goons( I will prefer not calling them people, they are not people) are respected and glorified for instigating people to kill each other in the name of religion and region and talking against a particular religion or region openly. They are given the highest state honor, a 21 gun salute on dying ‘valiantly’ of ripe old age. I am not going to take names, because I fear being arrested or worse being killed by these people.

If I post on a social media site that a certain politician in our country is dirty and people like him or her are born and die everyday and what is the big deal about it, I will be charged of hurting ‘religious sentiments’ of people and will be put behind the bars for this and the politician’s army will probably burn down my house. And I suggest you not to hit like on my post, because you too might have to join me behind the bars. I beg you to enlighten me what kind of law is this, where did I hurt anyone’s sentiments here? I just gave a statement that speaks volumes of truth, why do the people of this country not want to hear the truth?

It truly baffles me how can a politician who wants to ban the migration of citizens of the same country to his state be loved to a great extent or is it just hypocrisy and fear of people. What good job is he doing, promoting regionalism? Does being a rightist politician give you a right to give statements that might offend a religion that is not yours? And the worst part is, people like these rest in their homes peacefully, without a fear of law or the system because the power is in their hands, it is them who control everything. But if you or I even speak up about them, let alone raising a voice against them, we have probably taken our first step to ruining lives.

It is outrageous and disheartening to watch how everything works, we have rights but those can’t be exercised. Everything that happens in this democratic country is against the ethics and values of democracy, that is if we still call it a democracy. It certainly is not a country for good men, who are trampled and squished by the ones in power and the ones who have a different set of laws for themselves.

The Burnt


October 1947

It was past midnight when Salim heard some commotion outside in the street, there was nothing new about it, he was sure it was some Hindu mob attacking Akbar Marg, an all muslim street in the interiors of old Delhi. Hindus often came to attack the residents, they proclaimed Delhi to be theirs and wanted all the Muslims to go to in Jinah’s words ‘the moth-eaten nation- Pakistan’. The thought of fulfilling this wish of Hindus had come across Salim numerous times, but his mother, had dismissed the very idea of leaving Akbar Marg let alone Hindustan. He found it strange but didn’t want to leave behind his mother and therefore they stayed back. He thought he and his family could have a better future in Pakistan, a Muslim state, but his chances of migrating were bleak. The voices outside grew louder, they were nearing. He could hear a woman scream somewhere, probably some of the mobsters had got inside one of the houses. It was all an amalgamation of sounds-the mob, the screams of women, the protesting men and squealing babies.

Salim wished he could block all this and sleep peacefully for a night. The candle on the window sill had nearly burnt out, the light from it was flickering and in the shadows Salim could see the sleeping faces of his wife, Zeba and next to her their three year old son Sulaieman. Their faces peaceful, oblivious of the noise outside. Amidst all this he could also hear the soft snoring of his mother from some corner of the room.

Their house was one of the many one room ones in Akbar Marg, most of the Muslims had started living here after the partition. Even the rich ones who had lost everything had come here, every evening when they weren’t being attacked or attacking all the men sat at Farookh’s chai stall, discussing the political situation of Hindustan and Pakistan and some lamented leaving behind their past life.

Zakheer Khan, the potbellied man who was in his early forties, lived two houses away from Salim’s, proclaimed to be a mughal descendant. Few believed him, he found faults with everything he came across and grabbed attention quoting Ghalibs poetry in Persian. Salim, was used to living in this downtrodden way, this is how he had lived his entire life. Before Delhi, it was Ramgarh, a small district in Panjab where he along with his mother and her brother’s family somehow managed to eat two square meals a day. Her mother’s younger brother Rehman mama, had died and left behind two girls, three boys and a wife. Salim and his mother had come to Delhi after he got married to Zeba, leaving behind. Rehman mama’s family had insisted to live in Ramgarh, since he was buried there after his death and now they had gone missing, probably they had gone to Pakistan or were killed in a massacre.

He moved in his makeshift bed, adjusting himself to a more comfortable position. The noise outside could not be ignored any more, he knew he had to go outside to help his neighbors fight the mob, the only other alternative was watching his house being plundered and his family killed without putting up a fight. He would never let the mad mob overpower the people of Akbar Marg. “What a bunch of cowards they are, to attack at this time of the night” he thought to himself as he wore his shirt. He put on his skull cap, picked up the sword and without caring for the noise he made he closed the door and left. As he closed the door, he saw Zeba stirring, he was sure she was awake, just pretending to sleep.

The street was lit by the lamps, house number ten, where the Ahmeds lived was on fire. Salim now knew why there were the sounds of babies and women. He couldn’t believe that those son of bitches had put a house on fire and were gaining entry in their houses. How could the bastards stoop so low? Why were they targeting the women and children?

“Salim Bhai, quick they are heading there” he heard a voice with a hint of emergency in it , he looked back to see Kasim running and pointing to the south end of the street. Kasim had a lantern in one hand and a piece of wood in the other.

The noise was coming from the end Salim had just come from, where his house was, where his wife was pretending to sleep, his mother was snoring and his only son in a deep slumber. Salim began to run blindly, he had to stop the mob, kill every single man part of it. He surpassed, two brawling men, one had a weapon, the other was bare-handed, the former looked like a Hindu and to Salim’s horror the second one was Zakheer Khan, helpless, being brutally hit. Salim wanted to help but he had to go in the direction of the mob, make sure his family was fine and nobody entered his house.

In one corner, he could see a group of men huddled up, planning their next move, their new plan was to destroy the already plundered Akbar Marg, add a new trouble to the never-ending woes of its residents. He was about fifteen meters away from his house, when he again heard his name being cried out loudly, it was an outcry of a helpless man, it was Zakheer, he wanted to Salim to come to his rescue. He was bleeding profusely from his temples, his white ‘kurta’ the one he wore most of the times, was now red. It has hard to see a man of his size look so hopeless and helpless. His attacker was still kicking him, the weapon lay abandoned on the ground, he seemed to determined to kill. Salim couldn’t watch anymore and ran to save Zakheer’s life. The attacker in his zeal to kill, didn’t see Salim approaching them, he continued kicking Zakheer all over his body, his mouth too was bleeding now and he lay on the ground unable to move even a little. His screams had reduced to mere groans, all his strength gone.

Salim ran at a speed he never had, without a thought, without re-considering, forgetting all about humanity, he in the spur of the moment raised his sword and stabbed the unaware attacker right in the chest, where his heart was. The attacker fell on his knees, shock evident on his face and then he collapsed. Salim, to make sure he was dead kept stabbing him, till he was absolutely motionless. Zakheer was laying beside the now dead attacker, his breathing heavy but alive. He required immediate medical help. Salim had committed his first murder, he stood there looking at the dead body for a few minutes, disbelief on his face.

He soon dismissed all the thoughts gushing into his brain and dragged the unconscious Zakheer to a sheltered area and rushed to where the mob was, the residents of the Marg were trying to stop them, they were fighting a losing battle, he could see two houses on fire, the occupants with assistance from their neighbors trying to douse the fire. Salim was outraged to see all this happening, with his sword, now stained with the attacker’s blood he ferociously walked to the other end.

The noise of the mob was getting louder, they were screaming slogans, “Bharat Chorho” (leave Hindustan) “Hindustan hamara desh hai” ( Hindustan is our land). Salim joined the revolting Muslims, hitting anyone he didn’t recognize, he knew all the people who lived in Akbar Marg. It was easy to differentiate a Muslim from a Hindu, they were devoid of the mandatory beard the Muslims sported and most of the Muslims wore skull caps. He was dueling with a man who looked not more than twenty years, when he heard his name loudly,third time in the night. Then someone pulled him away from the quarreling mob. Before he could figure out who had pulled him away, and who had saved another man from being murdered by him, his eyes fell in the direction of his house, he was feet away from it. Dumb struck he looked at what was supposed to be his home few hours ago, the fire had engulfed it now. The flames rising up and down like a monster, challenging him to come near and fight with the sword he still held in his hand, his strength was diminished in front of the mighty fire.
He blindly, joined the people throwing buckets of water, all noises blocked now, he knew if he went inside to save his family, there was no chance of him coming out alive. The fire was behemothic, it had spread from the first house and nearly all houses in the row were ablaze. Most of the people, were now trying to put out the fire, someone was screaming to call the fire brigade, but they would take their own sweet time. One of the only two fire stations in Delhi was a half an hour drive away and it had a staff of less than 100 fire fighters.

Congress in their agenda had included improving the services, but right now they had to handle more grave issues. The fire was ravenously eating up the entire neighborhood, everyone was now out of their houses, trying in vain to douse the fire. It was only at the crack of dawn, the fire engine was heard. It took twelve men and three hours to put out the fire.

Half the houses in Akbar Marg had reduced to ashes, at eight in the morning, when everything had cooled down, Salim went to what had been his home nine hours back only to find the three badly burnt and dead bodies.

About getting Lucky


One valuable lesson I have learnt from my father is there is nothing called luck. Whenever I go for an exam or something important he never says the mandatory ‘best of luck’  his only two words are “do well.” Once out of  curiosity I happened to ask him why he never wished me luck. His reply was “because there is nothing like luck, if you have prepared well you will do well, nothing else can help you.”

I thought of it, he was right. It is us who ourselves can figure out our own luck, no angel can weave a magic wand over you when you aren’t prepared for an exam. I am just taking exams as an example here, there can be a lot more instances. Someone once said “Life is not easy. We all have problems-even tragedies-to deal with, and luck has nothing to do with it. Bad luck is only the superstitious excuse for those who don’t have the wit to deal with the problems of life.” How apt these words are, why blame luck for failures in life? If you were unlucky on a certain day, who is responsible? It obviously is YOU! If you failed with something, it implies that you lacked the thing, the factor in you to accomplish it. Luck had no role to play. A person didn’t get lucky if he is earning millions today, it was because he worked hard for it, right now we shouldn’t get into the wrong and right ways of doing things.

I come from a family that firmly believes in astrology, I do not contradict or question their believes or anyone who thinks similarly. What I think is feeding a black dog on every Saturday won’t change your destiny. Your destiny is what you make of it, what you do in your life and how you do it determines how lucky you will be and what your destiny will be. Luck and destiny are somehow co-related. Both are good if you have the right kind of attitude and a person himself is responsible for his luck and destiny.

On numerous accounts my brother and I have got into debates over the luck factor with our cousin. She somehow believes luck is the sole factor of success in life and has examples to contradict. I unfortunately can’t recall any right now but I will say the right kind of attitude and a little hard work are the sole ingredients of success. If you met with an accident you weren’t unlucky, it probably was because you weren’t driving properly, if you ran out of time in an exam it was because you didn’t learn how to manage time for that particular exam. I know most of you reading this will call me a fool and contradict me strongly, probably you are right in what you believe. But at the end of the day I will believe it wasn’t my bad luck if I failed it was my deeds that lead to the situation I might be in.

Monster vs Me


How would a kid who doesn’t like math react if you told him he no longer has to do it? I bet he will be ecstatic and dance the night away. That’s what I feel like doing right now after my fourth semester result.

In engineering you have math upto the fourth semester and its the hardest and most irrelevant subject. Basic math is fine and required in the core subjects, but some of it is just not essential and we are taught that for no reason. So after nineteen years of being in the battle ground with the monster, I finally won, emerging gloriously after the war. The last two years were the toughest, that’s when the monster had learnt to breathe fire. Night after night in exam months I tried to devise ways to tame the monster. And finally to my disbelief the feeble efforts paid off. I scored a pretty decent score in math for the last time and I’m glad I no longer have to do it.

I’m not a very keen engineer, I enjoy nothing in it except web-designing and the only subjects I liked in two years were data communications and operating systems. Also system programming to some extend but that was for some funny reasons I’m not disclosing here. All these subjects were in 4th semester. That would mean the former three were a complete waste. But I never detested any subject more than math. It came back every semester to haunt me and screw me up. Its a good feeling to know I no longer have to pick up a math book for, let’s say eternity. Yep, that sounds awesome.

I finally nailed it, still hard to digest the fact. All I can say is, math-game over. Let’s not face each other again, because now you know who the fire-breathing monster is. *evil grin*

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Scream


I have read a lot of 55 words fiction, generally all of them are really good and seem very hard to come up with. It was hard for me to muster the courage to write a 55 words fiction but yaay I wrote and now you have to tell me how it is. And it is actually 55 words :D

The night was exceptionally hot, I was sweating. The skies were clear and the stars lit the place.  I was strolling out, there was no power. The silence was eerie and I was now bored. I heard a scream from inside. I rushed in, just to find the power was restored and TV was on.

Motivation Required


I haven’t been blogging much for the last few days. Its probably because I have nothing much to write and I am home nearly all day long, being lazy. I could do with some motivation to write and if you want me write about something do leave a comment.

The heat is getting on my nerves, even more so because I have to go for my PHP classes from 12 noon to 2pm when the sun is cruelly glaring and draining all the energy you have. The classes aren’t even worth attending, its been 3 weeks since I am going there and they still haven’t taught the basics of web designing. We are doing the programs that we did in C and C++. Someone please convince if that makes any sense at all.This summer couldn’t get worse.

To top it all I haven’t got my passport even now, I applied it a month and a half back. The tall claims of passport authorities saying that they will dispatch the passport within two weeks are false. Thanks t o them my chances of visiting my aunt in US are decreasing with every single day.

Now I look forward to June, especially June 18th, that is when I leave for the Mumbai and Goa trip, with a couple of friends. Its going to be a LEGEN-wait-for-it DARY trip. In June I also complete two years of blogging, two years of being a part of a new and mesmerizing world, the cherry on the cake is I also complete hundred blogposts soon, this being the 91st post.

So get me closer to the century of posts, I want to be there by 16th June. Give me ideas for stories, I will be writing on readers demands now.

Cheers and hope you have a good summer.

Alone


In the middle of the night,

when the darkness was the only dweller.

I  walked,

strolling all alone

in the deserted alley,

where only the shadows lurked.

My thoughts reflected in those shadows.

There were words left unspoken,

as the distances had grown.

Time had gone by,

the voices of the memories

that were now a past, lingered

in my rusted head.

The sweet voices of us laughing

and giggling together.

We climbed the trees

with our skinny hands and legs

and played in the greens

where the daffodils bloomed in glory.

We were young and believed

this was all ever-lasting.

That was before you turned ,

into the devil you are now.

The time snapped the ties

we thought were eternal.

Now it was just me left alone,

walking with my shadow.

And you, my brother

have flown with tides of time.

This isn’t my cup of tea.


I can’t bargain, not at all, not with the auto-wallah, the rickshaw wallah neither while I am street shopping. I am not good at it but does it matter? I am scorned upon due to this fact, people treat me like I am an invalid when it comes to bargaining. How can one bargain? I am never going to figure out the answer to that one question.

I always end up paying double the amount of money when I am traveling alone. When I am not alone, my friends  bully the poor auto-wallah to slash the prices till he agrees. I am just a mere spectator when these deals are discussed, standing like a child awestruck with the bargaining skills of the friends. Unfortunately we don’t have meter autos in Chandigarh.

When it comes to shopping, specially street shopping I either buy it or just let it be, bargaining is not just my cup of tea. I love shopping, like anyone else from planet Venus but I didn’t acquire the requisite skills for shopping. I definitely can’t bargain and I have an entire collection of clothes that I never saw again after purchasing. Those are signs of a bad shopper.

The best bargaining I ever did was with a traffic cop on the new year’s eve. He caught me for skipping a signal, I pleaded, begged, made innocent puppy faces and after half an hour of all that he let me go. It felt glorious, I was ecstatic. I saved my driving a license and 300 bucks. Apart from that I have never really bargained.

Its not that I have not tried at all, I do try but to no avail. I have this uncanny incapability of bargaining. What’s funnier is when people around me tell me its not a good thing. Does it really matter if I can bargain or not? Won’t change the world for me. So people around me stop pestering me about it.

Versatile Blogger Award


A few days back, Tanzz here nominated me for the Versatile Blogger. I was elated and would have loved to give an oscar winning like speech but that will get boring so I will just let it. Thanks a lot Tanzz for the nomination, it came as wonderful surprise.

There is a rule that when we get selected we have to nominate other 15 blogger to motivate and inspire them and write seven random facts about us.

Here are the random facts about me:

1) I love driving and swimming apart from reading and writing.

2) I don’t watch television, don’t find anything worth watching on it.

3) I want to travel the world all by myself.

4) I can be very serious when needed and rest of the times I am crazy.

5) I want to learn salsa, the only dance form I like.

6) I am more random than the facts I am writing here.

7) I am a pepsi and snickers addict. Pepsi is my all time favorite drink. Don’t swap it with coke.

Now my nominations, not fifteen right now though, do check these blogs they are worth reading.

1) Terror#1
2) emotionalsalad
3) I wish I knew
4) The serious butterfly
5) re-thinking life
6) Kishore on Shore
7) Indian Polity Today
8) My Pen’ll break yer sword